I just recently heard comments from a friend who said that there were some peeps who complained to her/him about my bad attitude. hah. really. FYI, the comments were made last year.

Well i was quite disturbed about it..never came across my mind that they had such unfavorable impression of me, mostly guys i would say..except i have to admit that i HAD been quite a self-centered vain pot in one or two cases for certain reasons.

It seems that they criticized me for being a person who will only go to them or stick to them whenever i needed help..is that so, that made me pondered for quite some time. Well first of all, i did not seek for their help but they offered to help me first instead..and they seem to be very willingly to do so. Often when i get too close to a guy, somehow or somewhat it would end up that person developing a liking for me. im not bragging or anything but these things did happen. thats why i started to avoid them even though they kindly endlessly being good to me [helping me in all ways] which made me felt bad at times. i never told anyone these things.

For example this guy, Mr B, behind my back told all of his friends that im a hopeless selfish gurl, pretty face but with a black careless heart BUT BUT BUT then, he himself always offered me help and id thought he was such a sincere kind dude. He even gave me pleasant suprises and heart-melting presents for my birthdays. WOW. i cnt believe my eyes when i found out that he had backstabbed me in a such way. utterly speechless. Is this what guys do when they fail to get what they want? but anyway, he did pissed me off once and i told him straight at his face that hes annoying.

There are lots more unfortunate 'incidents' and i realised that i tend to misled people alot. Its ridiculous. I just dont have the time to entertain these people. Not that i want to be ignorant, unfriendly, lan si or nething kie..i tried my best to be a good friend companion..but sometimes i just cant entertain so much. i cant go for outings always and ive restricted freedom. Studies always come first to me but that doesnt mean i have a dull life alright!! i enjoy life to the MAX and I LOVE WHAT IM STUDYING.. cept pengajian am bloody troublesome shyt ..

i would rather be self-contained form now on.

haha.no no no..i need friends.my life is nothing without them. thank god i have friends who are understanding and love me for who i am. The person told me this because she/he got confused and realised that im not as what her/his friends had told him earlier. thats why she/he told me. This person appreciates me, and me.

 

this is for people whom i hearteven if you think that im heartless.

im sorry if i cant be there for you when you are sad =(

im sorry if i dont reply your msges or reply extremely late.i know its annoying.

im sorry if i ever hurt your feelings, ffk especially.

pls forgive me if i forget to wish you happy birthday on time.

im sorry if i ever made you think that im the most self centred person, who only come to you when i needed you.